Dear boy that just recently broke my heart,
I miss everything about you! I miss the way I could always call you; I wish I didnt need a reason. I miss the way I could call you hunnie and laugh about it later. I miss your smile and the way you'd always laugh, I wanna see it just one more time. Your eyes still havent left my mind but I miss seeing them for real, there's something about them, some kind of security. I miss our perfect fantasy life that we would lead. I miss talking to you late at nite about nothing. We would stay up during all hours of the nite. Ya know for the most part I can still remember EVERYTHING youve ever said. The way you would tell me you love me, and the way we would argue about nothing. We never really agreed on anything, but we were crazy about each other. You told me you felt the same way I do, Butterflies in my stomach whenever I kiss you, the smiles that were always there, and I could tell you anything. You were my everything and you dont know how much you mean to me, you really dont. I keep thinking, maybe just maybe things could have been different, or maybe one less minute. Its like I need something to change things, but there's nothing I can do. Im trying so hard just to forget you but its like your never gonna go away. I dont know if thats a bad thing, or a good thing. All I really know is that I love you, and I that I wanna be with you! I dont know how Im gonna make you mine again. Some people tell me just to move on, they tell me youre not worth it and that I can do so much better, but what if I dont want to do better? What if I want just what I had? And how can you just forget someone who was as perfect, and sweet, and as wonderful as you were, or as you are? I just wanted you to know that I dont sleep at nite anymore. I wake up hour after hour and stay up for a while. I know Ive told you before, but I just wanna call you at times like these. When I wake up the first thing I think about is you about us, about how we were prefect, and about how I need you! Youre the reason I smile, the reason I laugh, and the reason I held on, now I dont have any reasons.